आँखों की नमी
और जुबान की ख़ामोशी
हाँ तेरी मेहेरबानी है,

तेरे ना होने का गम
और ना भरते यह ज़ख्म
हाँ तेरी मेहेरबानी है,

दास्तां-ए ज़िंदगी
और हमारी अधूरी ये कहानी
हाँ तेरी मेहेरबानी है,

बिन नींद की गुजरती ये रातें
और मेरी वो अनकही बातें
हाँ तेरी मेहेरबानी है,

तुझे खोने के डर से कुछ ना कहना
और सब कुछ कह कर भी तुझे ना खोना
हाँ तेरी मेहेरबानी है,

तेरा ना होकर भी होना
एक दूसरे को खोकर भी ना खोना
हाँ तेरी मेहेरबानी है,

तेरे साथ गुजरते ये बेफ्रिक्र पल
और फिर भी ना जाने क्या होगा कल

हाँ तेरी मेहेरबानी है,

रूलाती भी हैं
हंसाती भी है
ये तेरी मेरी बातें
हाँ ये भी तोह तेरी मेहेरबानी है!

Why was it so easy for you to make it so hard for me? 

Yes, it was pretty easy falling for you. I made it look difficult somehow. 

I held myself back for so many years. But when I finally fell for you, I figured out, why it was no less than an extraterrestrial beautiful moment of my life.

And after that very moment, I found myself slowly wanting to spend all my moments with you. It was simple and easy. 

You were also talking, smiling, laughing, eating, reading with me, but now when you are not even talking to me, I find it even more difficult to get back up, when I had fallen so very very hard.

What's more difficult is to survive every moment without knowing the reason why you changed all of a sudden. 

Was it so easy for you? 

Why it's so hard for me? 

Why do I fear so much to lose you, when you're not even mine.

If it was actually so easy for you to make it so hard for me, (as you made it look like) would you mind answering one question of mine... Why am I so scared to lose what I don't even have?

अब चलना सिख लूंगा,
बस कुछ रास्ते पीछे छूट जायेंगे,

अब  बोलना सिख लूंगा,
बस कुछ बात अनकहे रह जायेंगे,

अब जीना सिख लूंगा,
बस कुछ पल जीने से रह जायेंगे,

अब हसना सिख लूंगा,
बस कुछ पल मुस्कुराने से रह जायेंगे,

अब साथ निबाहना सिख लूंगा,
बस कुछ सपने पुरे होने से रह जायेंगे

अब इश्क़ करना सिख लूंगा,
बस कुछ खवाब अधूरे रह जायेंगे| 

शब्दों के जाल बुनते बुनते कही उलझ सा गया हूँ,
तुझे पास लाने की कोशिसो के बीछ तुझसे ही दूर हो गया हूँ,
क्या खता थी मेरी ये समझते समझते कही घूम सा हो गया हूँ,
तुझे पास लाते लाते, मैं खुद से ही कितना दूर हो गया हूँ|

प्यार और दोस्ती के बिच कही फस सा गया हूँ,
तुझे अपना बनाने की चाहतो के बीछ तुझमे ही कही खो गया हूँ,
क्या कमी रह गई ये सोचते सोचते कुछ गुमसुम सा हो गया हूँ,
तुझे समझाते समझाते खुद को ही  समझना भूल गया हूँ|

कहते कहते तुझे सब कुछ कही बिच में रूक सा गया हूँ,
दिल और दिमाग की यह जंग शायद मैं हार सा गया हूँ,
क्या खामिया रह गयी ये ढूँढ़ते ढूँढ़ते जीना भूल सा गया हूँ,
तुझे अपना बनाते बनाते मैं खुद से ही बेगाना हो गया हूँ|

हाँ तुझे प्यार करते करते मैं मुझसे ही जुदा हो गया हूँ| 

This is for you...

There is no parallel universe where the atoms collide at the right time. 

Wrong people right time, and right time wrong people, happens. 

You never meet the right people at the wrong time because the right people are timeless.  

So whatever thing is right there with you, if it feels right, if it feels like the force of universe itself is making it happen, trust it, believe it and hold it. Don't let it go! 

And if at all it doesn't feel right, then believe what I say next, "you'll always be mine, somewhere in the back of my mind... and I'll look for your first in my next life... that's exactly how much I love you".

  

I haven't had a good night's rest in months.

And the kind of tired I'm, I feel like carrying twice my body weight, every time I take a deep breath. The kind of tired which I fear no amount of sleep can ever cure. I’m the kind of tired who's in a dire need of peace.

Should I be sorry, for I constantly want to talk to you?

Should I be sorry, for I feel sad when you take long to reply?

Should I be sorry, for I keep on waiting for your Good morning text everyday?

Should I be sorry, for my day don't end without hearing from you?

Should I be sorry, for knowing the fact that you don't want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to you?

Should I be sorry, for I think about you too much and too often?

Should I be sorry, for I want to share my feelings for which you don't care at all?

Should I be sorry, since I made you an integral part of my life?

Should I be sorry, since I made you this important?

I'll be very happy to apologize for everything, but would you mind telling me a certain thing first?

Shouldn't you be sorry for constantly talking to me for days and for nights and for sharing every second of your life, when I warned you not to?

Shouldn't you be sorry for waking me up with your sweet Good morning texts/calls everyday without a fail?

Shouldn't you be sorry for being the last person I hear from every night before I go to bed?

Shouldn't you be sorry for telling me at one point of time I was the only person you talk to, you laugh with, and you share things with?

Shouldn't you be sorry for being the only person whom I can think about? 

Shouldn't you be sorry for being the kind of person who suddenly changes without any justification, without any reason and much less without any notice? 

Shouldn't you be sorry for making me important one day and making me this worthless today?

I will not beg for your time, and I certainly will not try to convince you to choose me, but I definitely want to confront the truth now, howsoever harsh, brutal, ugly and deadly it may be.

I want all of it, at once, and I want to hear it directly from you.

I have the guts today to accept my feelings, do you have some to tell me the truth?

That yes, you don't feel anything for me. That yes whatever I feel for you is worthless.

That yes, however important I might make you, I would never be even important to you.

That yes, you knew everything that I told you right now from the very beginning, but you were running away from me, from my truth, from my feelings, from my love.

Will you have the guts to accept that yes you've been ignoring me since so many days.

Will you have the guts to give me the privilege of getting my heart broken by you?

Every night, I struggle with words that could best describe how special you are to me,

and every next morning, I know this pursuit would continue, perhaps forever.

You’re the one I'd never mind losing sleep for,

and you’re the one I'd never got tired of talking to,

and yes, you’re the one who has always crossed my mind throughout the day!

You’re the one, who has made me smile even without trying,

and you’re the one who has made me laugh even in my worst,

and yes, you’re the one who has always affected my emotions with all your actions!

I’ll never be brave enough to lose you, even though you’re not mine,

but you’re the one I’ve always been afraid of losing,

and yes, you’re the one I want to keep in my life, for always!

You’re the one, I want to spend all my good days, and all my bad days.

I’ve never been so sure about someone or something in my entire existence.

So yes, you’re the one, and I say this without a single doubt in my mind.

Why I’m still so positive about the ‘idea of us’ amid all these negatives. There’s nothing positive in the air today, that sparkled the idea of ‘you and me’ on my mind.

Wait… Was there any?

At any point of time?

Ever?

Or was it just a concept?

A prerogative of my mind?

I don’t act from the position of weakness and that’s why I don’t have this habit of losing. I don’t just fear losing, I hate it! And there’s a reason why I usually end up in a win-win situation.

I think differently, you call it overthinking!

I analyse deeply, you call it exaggeration!

I read the situation minutely, you call it stretching too much!

What exactly am I stretching, have you ever thought about it? Do you agree there’s something that can be stretched?

I present things as they are, you ask what I’m trying to prove?

Sweetheart, there’s ain’t a thing which I’m trying to prove, or establish, or explain. I call it, like I see it. It’s tough, but it’s also fair. You know why? Because it’s the truth!

I take risks, the calculated ones, you ask what the issue is?

There’s absolutely none, per me. But a part of me also thinks that there’re a whole lot of issues that needs to be addressed. I’m not trying to create any issue, but at least I’m also not running away from addressing the ones that stand in front.

This attribute of thinking differently, this trait of analysing deeply, this nature of reading situations minutely, this braveness of presenting things as they are and this peculiarity of taking calculated risks, all rolled into one, give me this habit of winning. They make me positive, give me the confidence to just win.

So if I’m so positive about the ‘idea of us’, when you’re refuting it so convincingly, what’s the reason?

Well, there must be some! Else a person like me who wins at any cost, won’t be this positive, amid all negatives.

But yeah the truth remains, “half-empty, half-full” is an expression I have never cared for. But it’s also a fact that I’ll never be brave enough to lose you, even though you’re not mine!

Though there’re a million promises I’m willing to make, but here a select few.

(Ofcourse, like we say in legal terminology ‘this list is inclusive but not exhaustive’)

I’ll be the sun when it’s dark and the umbrella when it rains,
I’ll be the guard and the shield when you run out of defense.

I’ll be the voice when you need to say, things which you cannot say to everyone ,
and the ear when no one else will listen to your silence.
(I’m fluent in silence too.)

I’ll be the answer to questions that question your ability and potential,
and the reminder that ‘you have everything you need to make an impact in the world’.

Let me not say more, you know I’ve been true to you always and I’ll always be, till eternity.

I don’t need a day exclusively titled as ‘promise day’ to say what all I can be to you, but still so do you know, I say, “I’ll always be everything you would look for”.
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I promise.

Have I fallen for a heart that will never love me back?

Have I fallen for a mind that will never understand my value?

Have I fallen for the hands that will never hold me safe?

Have I fallen for the hairs that will never be cuddled by my fingers?

Have I fallen for the eyes that will never look into mine?

Have I fallen for the smile that will never make my heart skip a beat?

Have I fallen for the touch that will never make me feel loved?

Have I fallen for the voice that will never say my name?

Have I fallen for the laugh that will never make me laugh?

Have I fallen for the silly talks that will never make my day interesting?

Have I fallen for the innocence that will never make my morning beautiful?

Have I fallen for the one, whom I cannot have?

Have I fallen for someone, who will never be brave enough to fall for me?

Knowing everything, I still fall for you every day!

And I don’t know why, I’ll never finish falling in love with you!

Never let them tell you, what you can and what you cannot do.

Stop worrying about what others think. Instead, start caring about what you think.

Start working on what will make you happy.

Start focusing on what will make your life easy.

Try believing yourself so much that it shouldn’t matter what they think.

Let yourself be you, truly, freely and completely.

Life happens to you when you are busy planning other things. But if you develop a passion of pursuing your dreams, everything will fall into place. Sometimes the blurs in your life are the best part, for no one sees what you see. Be fearless in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire. Do a thing called what you want.

Never let the small minds convince you that your dreams are too big. Listen to what people don’t say, because, when the going gets tough, the getting gets easy.

Your journey won’t be the same as anyone else’s, so don’t let them tell you what it’s supposed to look like.

Embrace the uncertainties, challenge the challenges and chase the impossible. Do not look around for inspiration, instead, be their inspiration. Remember, you are what you manifest. Create the highest, grandest, biggest vision possible for you.

It’s okay to live a life others don’t understand. Look in the mirror. That’s your biggest competition, right there, in front of you. Starve your distractions and start feeding your focus. Let your passion burn brighter that your biggest fear. The doubts within yourself are your biggest enemy. Accept that failure is an option, because when you fail, you get up, and that keeps you going. And finally, don’t let life happen to you, make your own happenings, always.

I hope you'll find yourself trusting a little more, with every piece that I write.

I hope one day I can convince you, that you're stronger than you could imagine.

I hope you’ll realize your worth and would agree that you are doing better than you think.

I write because the world will easily tell you ‘you can’t’, but I want to tell you ‘you can’.

I want you to accept “you will”.

I've been waiting for the phone to ring,

Knowing well, today it’s not gonna tring,

Sooner or later, every day I get a ping,

Which make me feels like a king,

But I've been waiting for the phone to ring.

One day, my phone’s gonna ring,

I can sense the joy it’ll bring,

That day surely I’m gonna sing,

But today, I've been waiting for the phone to ring.

I no longer force a thing,

Have I become a sheep in a sling?

Waiting for the phone to ring

I go up in a swing,

But there’s nothing more I can do, I've been waiting for the phone to ring.

I’m hopeful that one day my phone will ring,

Your voice on the other end will again sing,

And it’ll take away this thing that sting,

But for today, I’ll be waiting for the phone to ring,

Knowing well, today it’s not gonna tring.

There comes a time in people’s life when the dots begin to connect on their own and things start falling in place. Of course, at times there is no explanation why good things happen, just as there is no explanation as to why bad things happened in the first place. And all you have to understand is that sometimes things are beyond our control. 

Tomorrow's gonna be what tomorrow's gonna be. 

But for today,

You have to keep on going. 

You have to fight your fears. 

Fear of unknown. 

Fear of losing people. 

Fear of failing. 

Fear of losing health. 

And you have to overcome these fears one at a time. Make yourself emotionally strong, accept the reality and trust your abilities. We in the world of perfect people are imperfects. 

We are so engrossed in winning, losing, success and failure... that we have forgotten how to live our lives. Yes, winning and success is important, but that surely is not the most important thing in life. The important thing in life is life itself. No matter the result, always treat your life as the most important thing of your life. If you got what you are working on, it's good. Life goes on. But if you fail, then also life goes on. It's not the end. You aren't out of options.

That's the trick, isn't it? 

To survive? 

It's not just about living forever. 

The trick is living with yourself forever.